If I had to say what my blog is about, I would say — spiritualism, of course. But spiritualism is not some stupid woo-woo nonsense. It is sociology and psychology in their purest form. It is culture, history, anthropology.
At this point, there are many descriptions here of psychological processes, personal development, spiritual growth, working through trauma, etc.
Very often I meet people who are interested in astrology and say they are spiritual. Without diminishing anyone — astrology has nothing to do with spirituality. Astrology is a tool that describes time. Everything happens in cycles and has its lifespan. Astrology helps us determine what period we are in and what is happening during that time. It describes phenomena, people, traits, speed, dynamics.
Spiritual development, on the other hand, is the process in which we expand our own consciousness. It is complex, layered, and lasts a lifetime. Its goal is not to evolve into some supernatural superior being — I consider that complete nonsense. If you develop yourself because you want to be better than others and you do not use your abilities to make the world around you better, you are doing it wrong.
Development should lead to goodness — with respect for healthy boundaries.
For years I have observed a tendency where people think that if you are good, you will allow others to spit in your face. As if kindness equals naivety and being a doormat. Truly spiritual people — those who have gone through their own shadow — will not allow themselves to be mistreated.
What I’m getting at is this: our perception of reality is directly correlated with who we are and the level of our consciousness. Different people will describe the same event in completely different ways.
Take highly toxic individuals, for example — a narcissist or other deeply disturbed personalities see the world through a very narrow personal prism. They project blame onto everyone around them. Such people never see their own fault because they are disordered. You cannot explain anything to them because they “know best.” The sooner we realize this is a lost battle and choose not to fight at all — we become the winners.
In ego battles, the one who walks away wins. Always.
While writing this blog, I received an angry message from a very toxic person — someone with narcissistic tendencies and traits.. obsession with other people, extreme jealousy, rage attacks intensified by alcohol. One of the most toxic individuals I have ever met wrote me a furious message because they recognized themselves in my description of toxic behavior.
That message was nothing but confirmation for me. People like that are so blinded by what they do that there is no help for them. They do not see how they harm others. I was accused of being toxic and other nonsense.
Well — the truth hurts. As long as no one speaks up, everything is “fine.” But hit the table, and the scissors will respond.
When you haven’t spoken to someone for years and they explode with rage over an article describing narcissistic traits and clinical characteristics of the disorder — I think we can leave it without further comment.
A spiritually developed, grounded person who has worked through their trauma is a warrior and will not let anyone walk all over them. There is no greater power than becoming someone deeply rooted in their own truth and in the defense of the values they believe in.
I am a person who never lies. You get exactly what you see. The more authentic you are, the more you piss off people who aren’t. Because they don’t have their own truth, their own style, their own personality. They don’t have light — they feed off other people’s lives. They feed on lies, slander, and gossip.
While someone like that obsesses over what another person is doing, cursing them and thinking how to harm them, that other person is living fully, here and now, breathing deeply and not thinking about the toxic one at all — because they mean about as much as last year’s snow. Forgotten.
We live in a world of energy. Everything is one. Everything is connected. When you harm others — you harm yourself. When you think about someone, whether positively or negatively, you feed them. If you obsess over someone and constantly talk about them, spread gossip — not only will it come back to you (because that is energetic balance), but you are also energizing them.
People who live in symbiosis with the Universe, who respect energy and energetic practices, are exceptionally protected. They are protected by God — and my God is energy. The creative force of the entire Universe. The life-giving source.
I respect energy. I never act to harm another human being. Even if you wish me ill, I wish you nothing. You are neutral to me. As for everyone else, I consistently wish elevated emotions, because those are what make our world better.
I gain nothing from running this page. My original intention — and the one that remains unchanged — is to create a better world and help develop the consciousness of those who still have more questions than answers. I also do not claim that I have all the answers. Development is a path that does not have to be lonely. We should share what we know and what we can give, in order to create a better tomorrow.
Being in Bali, I think a lot about the “spiritual circus” — tourist attractions built on spiritual traditions in order to make money off tourists. Remember that if you constantly talk about your “healing journey,” participate in rituals, baths, smudging ceremonies, etc., that’s not really the point.
Healing is inner work. And while spiritual development lasts a lifetime, healing must end at some point — just like effective therapy. Whether you go to a psychiatrist, psychologist, shaman, or handle it yourself, every therapy must eventually end. That is its goal. So you can function in society.
You are a spiritual being having a human experience. You are meant to become a better human.
If you stay stuck in an endless healing loop, you are telling the Universe: “I am a victim.” And you will live in a victim loop.
Our thoughts manifest our reality.
And don’t get me wrong — I am a super empath. I feel much more than the average person. I cry a lot. Sometimes energy literally crushes me. That is why cleansing and grounding are so important — so you don’t carry energies that are not yours.
An important aspect of development is learning how to alchemize energy and protect yourself.
The development of the psyche and consciousness happens through experience — through pain. Without experience, there is no growth. You live in a bubble. From pain arises the highest form of understanding. But once pain is experienced, it must be left behind.
The past happened and will never return. It has no meaning now. You must not live in the past — that causes depression. Living in the future causes anxiety. When you live here and now, you do not feel anxiety and you do not experience depression. You are present. The only thing that exists is this moment.
It is hard to shift into this way of thinking. Human beings tend to live in what was. We have emotions, we care, and it is difficult to develop thick enough skin not to be affected by what is happening around us. But that is what we must strive for — not numbness.
There is a lot of evil happening in the world. We must be aware of it and speak about it. But we cannot allow ourselves to choke on despair and the suffering of others, because collectively it lowers our energy and leads to regression in our development.
The greatest growth of human consciousness is estimated to have happened in the 1980s. Later there was regression, which is only now beginning to shift again. Globally, people are finally starting not only to see what is happening but to understand what causes what and how the world is constructed. It is a global-level game — not only about freedom. It is a fight for humanity.
When it comes to living here and now, I strongly encourage you to travel solo. When a person is alone with their own thoughts, that’s when they grow the most.
The greatest stimulant for brain development is novelty. Research has shown that people who listen to different genres of music and actively seek new experiences have more developed areas of the brain responsible for creativity.
Our intuition develops through novelty and new experiences. When you leave your home environment — for example, when you go on vacation — your brain is forced into the present moment. You are not thinking about what will happen in two weeks or a month. You try to use your time as fully as possible and not waste a single moment.
That is exactly the state you want to remain in after returning from vacation.
You can go much further in life when you operate in that mode. When only this moment matters and you use it 100%, you are far more effective than when you work while worrying about some distant future.
Travel doesn’t just develop you as a person — it opens you to the world. Over the past weeks, I’ve met a huge number of incredible people. Some were on vacation, some were locals, others expats — some have been in Bali for a year, others for ten. What they have in common is that they live — and they want to live. It’s a different mindset.
It’s a specific place, because it attracts anti-system people. And it’s a refreshing change — to simply be.
You are a human being — not a human doing.
I also think about how everyone wants to have a “spiritual girlfriend” or spiritual friends. And here we return to the topic of being a doormat. If someone is a doormat, they are not spiritual — they are stuck in a victim syndrome.
But when it turns out that spiritual warriors are people who don’t let anyone walk over them and are protected by God, suddenly people get scared and you become “a witch.”
When you have a backbone and you are a truth teller, suddenly you become the inconvenient one.
If you treat others badly — yes, be afraid. Karma will beat the shit out of you.
Those “inconvenient” people have something others don’t — honor.
Toxic people expect that a spiritual person will be a doormat. It is very important that you keep your distance from toxic individuals.
It’s gaslighting and crude manipulation: “But you’re supposedly so spiritual.” Translation from toxic language: you should let me spit in your face because I expect that from you. I will spit on you and you should smile and not react because you’re “so good.”
Another important aspect is that toxic people absolutely never see a problem within themselves.
If you have ever wondered whether you might be a narcissist, sociopath, or have some other disorder — you don’t. These individuals are detached from reality, and that is one of the clinical traits. A narcissistic person always sees fault outside themselves and projects onto others.
Unfortunately, the best thing you can do — no matter who that person is — is no contact.
You cannot change such people. They do not want to change. Even if they attempt therapy or claim to change, it is most often manipulation — of the environment or even of the therapist. They go to therapy to look good or to play the victim.
Every toxic person plays the victim. They cry, complain about how poor and hurt they are by people and the world. First they persecute their environment in a hundred ways, and later, when they face consequences — isolation, boundaries — they twist the narrative so they appear to be the injured ones.
Take a man who abused his partner for years — psychologically, later even physically, financially abusive, constant accusations, jealousy, fights — creating pathology and hell instead of a home.
The partner, mentally destroyed and completely exhausted, finally finds the strength to leave. When someone is broken down like that, it often takes enormous willpower to rebuild, especially after domestic violence.
And then comes the narrative: “I’m so poor and unhappy, she just left me for no reason.” Outside the home, he’s charming. Everyone likes him. You can drink with him, party with him, travel with him.
But at home, he terrorizes the woman he lives with. And no one believes her because he’s so charming publicly.
If this description sounds familiar to you and you are in the process of rebuilding your life — congratulations. You won. Literally.
Long-term abuse most often leads to suicide for its victims.
Is it hard to start over? Yes.
Will it get easier with time? Yes.
Is it worth fighting for every single day? Absolutely.
Never allow toxic narratives to hunt your life down.
These are monsters without empathy. They are incapable of feeling anything real. They constantly have a problem. Nothing is ever good enough. Everyone is stupid. Everything is wrong. Only they and their opinions matter.
A characteristic trait of toxic people is constant comparison.
I once met someone who is a narcissist — constantly comparing herself to others. What hair that person has versus hers. What clothes. What body.
A normal person does not do that.
When someone constantly seeks validation and compares themselves to others, it is a sign of a disturbed psyche — not only because they seek constant confirmation, but because their distorted perception will reveal that something is deeply wrong.
Disordered individuals do not know they are disordered. They also have a distorted self-image.
The person I’m referring to compared herself to women who objectively looked better, claiming she looked like a goddess next to them and was superior.
It’s similar to someone with anorexia who, despite being dangerously thin, sees themselves as overweight in the mirror.
Narcissistic individuals often see themselves in reverse — for example, someone severely obese, with serious health consequences from obesity, comparing themselves to a fit woman with low body fat who works out daily, claiming they look better.
They spew venom and criticize the other woman. Not just venom — they pour filth over her.
They cannot stand her presence.
This is severe detachment from reality.
On one hand, they try to communicate superiority. On the other hand, they must carry enormous internal shame and lack of self-worth.
When a person focuses on themselves — on their intellectual development, spiritual growth, appearance, nurturing their soul, mind, and body — when they live in energetic balance and, above all, in alignment with themselves — they do not wish harm upon others.
It took me time to heal my inner child and my traumas. To understand the karmic loops I had been living in and what my karma is in this incarnation. To listen to my intuition and to know and see what others do not see.
It has been many years of development on three levels. And as a person who loves herself unconditionally, who knows her worth and knows she is a wonderful divine being — I can say this: such a person never wishes anyone harm. Does not judge. Does not carry negative emotions. Does not gossip. Does not spread rumors.
If I say something, it is because it happened and it is the truth.
I am a light worker — not because it’s trendy or sounds cool. I am someone who wants to create a better world. I feel called to it. And to change anything, you must set an example.
Many times people have tried to discredit me through lies and gossip. Those people do not reach my moral standards — and that is exactly why they hate me so much. I have a backbone. They don’t.
It is hard to be moral in a broken world. To always stand by truth. To be honest. To be fair.
And again we return to the spiritual victim and the social expectation that you should be a “nice” doormat. Fuck no.
There is a difference between being nice and being kind.
Being nice is being a pushover.
Being kind is acting accordingly to the way someone treats you — because you have self-respect.
There is nothing more important than self-respect and self-love. It has allowed me to leave very difficult life situations many times.
On Instagram, someone sees smiling photos and thinks life is easy for you. It’s not. Those are fragments — highlights of the good moments.
You can choose to play the victim and get stuck in that mindset, but it leads nowhere good. It only manifests poverty and unhappiness. Both are created by our own thinking.
I have experienced so many hardships and misfortunes that it’s hard to count them. In fact, most of my life — until I began developing and changed my thinking — was a series of misfortunes and failures.
I had many car accidents. Truly many for my age. I had serious health problems, hospital stays, failed surgeries — medical errors. For many years I couldn’t breathe properly or function normally.
I have had many homes. Many times I thought I had finally settled and that my life was going somewhere — and many times I lost those homes and had to move again for various reasons.
Before I turned thirty, I created my first businesses. I invested everything I had. I lost everything.
I had moments in my life when I had a lot. And moments when I had nothing.
When my company was sinking, invoices were piling up, I worked like an animal just to survive and pay rent. I sometimes wondered whether to fill up my car with gas or buy groceries.
There were periods when I slept only a few hours a night. I lived in three cities at once — moving between one home, another, and production sites — driving 3,000 kilometers a week.
Sometimes I would pull over at a gas station parking lot and cry.
I was exhausted from work and mentally destroyed by my private life — because someone was abusing me.
I never complained to anyone. I clenched my teeth and kept going.
I never had help. I never had support.
And when I was struggling, I saw that some people around me were genuinely happy that something finally went wrong for me. Some distanced themselves because I was no longer the friend to drink champagne with at L’Avenue.
People I considered friends didn’t even answer my phone calls.
Interestingly, those same people today never miss watching anything I post. Even though they had much more than I did back then, they lacked the drive to represent anything meaningful.
Some say you learn who your friends are in hardship. Others say you learn in success. I think you need both.
In hardship, vultures may circle you just to feed on your misfortune. In success, they may circle you to benefit from it.
Many women attached themselves to me not because they liked me — but because of energy. They thought that through me they would meet someone interesting. I have something that makes people approach me. I can sit somewhere alone and shortly after I have company.
That’s just how it is. I am open to people. I am positive and optimistic. That attracts people.
But I am like that because I constantly develop and work on myself.
I have gone through illnesses, accidents, failed businesses, and domestic violence. Yet I never lose faith or optimism.
I believe one person with an open heart can change a lot and make the world better.
This cannot be faked.
Everything is energy — you attract what you are.
So if you are mean, petty, malicious, gossiping about people the moment they leave the table — do not expect a beautiful life.
Life brings us difficulties so that our soul can develop. When you think about it this way, your perspective on things you cannot control changes completely — on other people and their projections that have nothing to do with you.
It is not important what happens to you. What matters is how you react and who you become.
Who you are is something no one can ever take from you.
Even if you lose everything, you will rebuild yourself because you know who you are.
In life, the winner is always the one who never gives up.
Bali suits me. I love traveling. Among other reasons, because you go somewhere where no one knows who you are. No one knows your history, your failures, or your victories. You arrive with one suitcase and, essentially, the only thing you truly have is yourself — who you are, your energy.
And suddenly life shows you what you actually have and how much it’s worth. There are no titles, no property, no status. What becomes visible instead is kindness. How another human being treats you.
I’ve met many wonderful people here. Most of the people I’ve met live here permanently. I haven’t really met many tourists. And you know — coincidence doesn’t exist.
People here are incredibly kind and open. It’s a refreshing change to surround yourself with such energy.
In many places in the world — even in Europe, where I come from — I was made to feel inferior because of my nationality. People laughed at me at the table, in my presence. Apparently, crude jokes about Poles are still funny in some places.
Many times I was also treated worse because I had less money.
And here comes the topic of money.
Many spiritual people fall into the trap of saying that money isn’t important, that matter doesn’t matter. I absolutely disagree. Money is extremely important — not as an illusion, but as a sense of security.
To be happy, to feel safe, and to function in this world, a human being needs money. To live with dignity. To have a family and be able to support it. To allow yourself pleasure.
Life is not meant to be practiced in asceticism.
Our deeply rooted shame around having money is a karmic loop we need to break.
Life is meant to be lived. To love. To enjoy. And unfortunately, that is not possible if you live in constant fear about tomorrow.
Does money bring happiness? Absolutely not.
You also need to know what to do with it. And you need things that cannot be bought — like elevated emotions, integrity, living in truth.
I have met many very wealthy people. On a scale most cannot even imagine. They vacation in luxury destinations. Their watches cost as much as a studio apartment, yet some people in the world don't have drinking water or shoes. They in comparison can provide themselves with almost anything.
Are they happy? I won’t generalize — somewhere in the world there are surely wealthy people who are spiritual and believe in something greater than money. But the ones I know? They don’t seem very happy.
I once met a very interesting man. On the surface — 10/10. He checked all the boxes. Relatively young for what he had achieved. Very handsome. Interesting. He made an impression on me.
Maybe he talked a little too much about material things. I don’t live in materialism, so maybe that’s why I perceived it that way. We had different realities, so our perspectives differed.
He spoke about family and values. For a moment I thought — 10/10.
Beautiful place. Vacation. Amazing food — things people work for, so they can afford them. And yet he had it all and felt absent. I didn’t feel that he was enjoying it. There was sadness in him. A kind of emotional absence.
Of course, many things weren’t said. We don’t know other people’s stories — what shaped them.
Maybe what he said wasn’t even true. Sometimes people say things because it’s good business to say them. It builds trust.
Each of us wears some kind of mask. Life is theater, isn’t it? Everyone plays a role for some reason.
Authenticity is rare today.
Maybe we ourselves aren’t always authentic either?
When I like someone, I act like an idiot. I get nervous. I can’t speak. I’m an antisocial weirdo by nature, shy, and speaking publicly is a tragedy for me.
So for a moment you think someone is 10/10 — soul recognition. Sometimes you meet someone and you just know.
Or maybe you meet someone and project onto them what you wish they were — and it turns out it’s not real.
Our thoughts manifest reality — so maybe they manifest dreams and illusions at the same time?
Projection and living in illusion is dangerous. We often complete stories in our heads that were never there.
It’s important to unpack such situations.
With time, I know I made that projection myself. You feel something, so you think it must be real. But life shows you clearly when you were wrong.
If something is meant for us, it will find us. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe in destiny. And if we don’t learn a lesson, we will learn it in other circumstances — or even in another body.
So next time, before you rush ahead, take three steps back. Maybe it’s a lesson and nothing more — even if for a moment it felt like something bigger.
Not everything that crosses our path is meant to stay.
Sometimes we are meant to experience something to grow, to begin something new richer in experience.
Full moon and eclipse are times of letting go of everything that no longer serves you. Pay attention to your emotions. What do you feel? What is the Universe showing you? What needs healing? What still hurts? Where should you go next? What should you work on?
An eclipse during a full moon is energy multiplied by four.
Be gentle with yourself.
Matter, in my opinion, is important in the context of collecting experiences. Most of us prefer staying in a nicer hotel on vacation than in an ugly one. Aesthetics matter. Travel matters. Beautiful things. Possessions.
If you can find balance.
If you can’t? Another car, another vacation, another handbag will not bring you happiness if you don’t know where you are going.
Is the path of chasing material wealth worth walking alone?
Everyone must answer what matters to them.
It’s hard to believe I’ve already been in Bali for a month. For this entire month I’ve mostly worn rubber flip-flops, a swimsuit, and pajamas. I packed a suitcase full of beautiful clothes I probably won’t even wear because I have nowhere to wear them.
Am I less happy because of that? Not at all.
I have peace. There are no toxic people around me. I live in truth — my own truth.
I think a lot about what is happening globally and where it’s heading. I predicted these actions quite accurately when everyone said nothing like this would ever happen in that particular region. And yet it did.
I said it after one country committed genocide against its neighbors. I said what the consequences would be — and that is exactly what happened. It was only a matter of time.
We’ll see what happens next.
As painful as it is, humanity develops through pain and suffering. We need wars to appreciate peace. Without evil, there is no good.
Eclipse is quick, swift leave, disruption. 2026 is a bridge year to the Age of Aquarius.
Don’t make yourself small. Don’t shrink. Don’t belittle your dreams.
Energy responds to energy. Ask for what you truly want in life.
2026 is a time to build your foundation.
What are you becoming?
What do you want?
How do you want to live your life?
Start there. Describe who you are and what you want. Then create it the way you like it.
You are not your story. You are what you believe you are. And you can do whatever you want.
I went through tons of shit in my life that I didn’t deserve. But I know that I am protected by God, by spirit guides, by my ancestors. I know that I will never walk alone. I simply know it.
And I will never bow to any difficulties.
It’s not an option.
Never compare yourself to anyone. You don’t know what someone has been through or why they are who they are. Sometimes you see a beautiful picture, but you have no idea what stands behind it or how it was created. Sometimes things are very different from what they seem.
Your path is yours, and it belongs only to you.
If you want to grow, remember — many people had less than you and still went further.
Be grateful. When you are grateful, life gives you more reasons to be grateful.
Just a pure stream of intuitive thoughts today. Releasing in between eclipses, I guess.
Love,
Laura.
