Spirituality has become fashionable. Tarot cards, crystals, ceremonies, and promises of a better future are everywhere. But very rarely do we ask ourselves a simple question — does any of this actually help us grow, or does it only keep us dependent, afraid, and disconnected from ourselves?
This text is not about predicting the future or offering comforting illusions. It is about energy, responsibility, consciousness, and the difference between real inner work and spiritual escapism. It is also a personal reflection — written from experience, disillusionment, pain, and the clarity that comes only after illusions fall apart.
Tarot cards, as well as other divination tools, are neither good nor bad, nor can they harm anyone. Cards are simply tools that show us the current energies — the energies present at this exact moment. These energies may be completely different in five minutes, because cards are not meant for fortune-telling or predicting the future.
And here a question may arise — so why lay the cards at all? Precisely to see the energies and potential threats. They are not an oracle, and one should not become attached to their outcome. Personally, I stopped reading cards altogether, precisely because of how changeable energy is.
If we receive certain information that we can actually use — great. We could benefit from it. But if something is fluid and unstable, why disturb our own thinking? Most people are unable to separate this from wishful thinking and not fixate on an outcome. Living in the future separates you from the present moment.
I haven’t visited a fortune teller in over a year. Before that, I went regularly for three years, so I have quite a decent “statistic” — nothing came true. Moreover, I realized that I was simply being deceived, and that fortune-telling most often preys on human weakness and is an effective mechanism for making money off human suffering.
I always wondered why people go to a fortune teller for ten years — some even once a week. I spoke to one such person who told me that none of her predictions had come true. When I asked why she kept going, she replied that she wanted them to come true and kept returning to ask why they hadn’t happened yet.
And honestly — I fell into that trap myself at the beginning. I went back a few times to ask why something that was supposedly meant to happen still hadn’t happened — simply because someone who profits from exploiting vulnerable people told me so.
People naively believe not only in fortune-telling, but they also develop a kind of fear toward those who practice it. They become so dependent on visions of a wonderful life that they stop living. They tremble at the thought that a fortune teller might not accept them for a reading. They are afraid to speak up, afraid to offend, and they will never tell such a person what they truly think.
It is a perfectly constructed mechanism of manipulation and profiting from human misery. What is terrifying is how many people fall for such practices. The more misfortune and desperation someone has in their life, the more they allow themselves to be exploited, believing that someone like this is helping them.
The truth is that it is not in the interest of people practicing such things to actually help you — because they would lose clients. Someone who goes once a week for ten years? That’s very good money.
Let us remember: whether we use traditional psychotherapy, bioenergy therapy, or visit a fortune teller — any practice meant to improve our state should ultimately help us, not make us dependent on outcomes and rituals. Even our healing — especially mental healing — should eventually come to an end in the sense of therapy sessions. We should be able to function independently. That should be the goal.
I also know people who go to psychiatrists for years and often want to justify their behaviors by making themselves victims, instead of genuinely developing and realizing that healing depends on themselves.
Sometimes you simply have to take responsibility for your life and try harder. Give something of yourself. Grit your teeth and look toward the future with optimism.
There are countless examples of people who manage to work, rebuild their lives from scratch, stay sober for fifteen years, or overcome other addictions and weaknesses. In life, you either make excuses or pull yourself together — and that is a measure of the strength of one’s character.
It’s easy to explain everything away with anxiety, depression, or alcohol. I went through anxiety, depression, and a nervous breakdown — and I didn’t take even half a pill. What some people call a nervous breakdown is, in reality, a spiritual awakening — but when it happens, we are most often not yet aware of what we have actually gone through.
My pain was raw and tearing. And that is spirituality — the kind born in pain. It is one form of awakening, unfortunately the harsher one, when consciousness awakens suddenly and demolishes all the structures on which life was built.
There are two options: surrender or rise stronger and better. There are two pills to choose from — you can choose the matrix, or you can choose raw pain.
From the outside this may sound strange, especially to someone who hasn’t awakened — and that’s okay. Not everyone will understand this until they experience it themselves.
The moment of awakening is often the moment when we seek answers — answers to a thousand questions that we believe will reveal the secrets of the universe. At that stage, we still don’t know whether all secrets are meant to be accessible to us. We must allow silence in order to hear them. We must be. Feel.
And when we are and we feel, we begin to trust ourselves. At some point, we no longer need to ask a thousand questions, because we know we will never receive answers to them all.
I know that I know nothing. And the more I know, the more unanswered questions I have. Consciousness grows, accepts, becomes an observer.
In the world we live in, all kinds of spiritual “woo-woo” have become fashionable — people in robes, traveling for ayahuasca ceremonies, draped in crystals — only to later sit at a café and gossip about which friend is a “bitch” and how much they despise her.
Asked what spiritual development actually is, they will most likely start talking nonsense about astrology, without even knowing what it truly is.
A particularly interesting species is the spiritual narcissist — someone who hates everyone and everything, yet considers themselves superior to Jesus Christ and believes they are the savior of the world.
You’ll find such people in churches, but also at shamanic retreats. They perform “magic” and “energy work” on others because they can’t stand them and believe they have the right to do so because they are “better.”
Let us remember: we live in a world of energy. Everything is energy. Every word and every thought — information itself — is energy. And energetic balance is always maintained.
Curses, spells, ill intentions — they always return to their original source. Spiritually developed people who are connected to the universe often have very good relationships with their ancestors and spiritual guides. They are additionally protected — including by angelic presence.
Energy may be invisible to you or visible — but it can be felt, and it can even be seen. It is always registered by the universe. What you wish for others always comes back to you — perhaps not in the same form — but do not expect a beautiful life if your intention is to harm others and spread hatred.
Over the past few years, I have witnessed the downfall of several people who hurt me. I say this without a shred of satisfaction. I never wished harm upon anyone. But I know that sooner or later the tables turn, and people very often become exactly what they once mocked.
Karma. You have exactly what you have worked for.
As for fortune-telling — I believe that if someone feels the need to go to a fortune teller, a very wise clairvoyant once gave my family an excellent piece of advice: go once, and if the reading is good — never go back. Forget about the reading and live your life.
That is valuable advice.
There are also people who will try to manipulate you in order to make money off you. It is in their interest that your predictions do not come true — because if you already have that fairytale life with a prince on a white horse, you won’t need a fortune teller anymore. They would become obsolete.
So if you feel the need — go, satisfy your curiosity, and don’t return.
If you are interested in cards, I recommend something else. Do what I did. Buy your own tarot cards. They must be new and must not be received as a gift. You buy new cards, they carry your energy, and only you should use them. Never lend them to anyone.
Cards always have one owner. The same applies to pendulums — everyone should have their own so energies don’t mix.
Buy your own cards, and if you have a moment of doubt, you can use them for support. They may offer guidance.
I also believe they are good tools at the beginning of our journey, when we have many questions and don’t yet trust our intuition enough to know the answers without them.
And this brings us to the most important issue — intuition.
Intuition is the most important thing, and that is what you should focus on developing. I personally no longer read cards — I don’t need them. When I ask myself a question, the answer often appears immediately in some form — through waking visions, symbols appearing on my path, or dreams that contain precise answers.
Sometimes spiritual guides pass information to me. Sometimes I experience intuitive channeling. Often I simply know things, even though I never studied them or read about them. I know places I have never been. I feel people’s energies. I sense lies and bad intentions from miles away.
That is the most valuable thing in developing intuition — trust in yourself and in it. When you listen to it, it provides you with more and more answers.
For many years, all of this seemed very complicated to me — until further stages of growth occurred and I entered a higher level. When consciousness expands, it often happens suddenly. You develop daily, go through a phase that lasts weeks or months, and then one day you wake up and suddenly have answers to all the questions you’ve been asking yourself for the past six months — and you simply know that things are this way and not otherwise.
In every period, we are tested — that’s my belief. Some say it’s nonsense, others agree. I lean toward this system. We live in a world of subtle intuitions and symbols that guide us, and our intuition constantly tests us in everyday life — how we behave, how we treat people, how we solve problems, whether our consciousness has recognized a karmic pattern we are dealing with, whether we noticed it, learned the lesson, and how we acted.
These lessons may involve how we treat a partner, a coworker, or a stranger asking for help. They may concern our behavioral systems, psychological patterns, thinking habits, or ordinary daily matters — procrastination, diet, lifestyle.
When we pass enough of these lessons and live in alignment with truth and the greater good, we receive a reward — the growth of consciousness. Energy requires surplus — we must give something of ourselves in order to receive something in return.
These are karmic rewards, and one such reward may be the expansion of consciousness itself.
At the beginning of the journey, people often want to manifest material goods. And don’t misunderstand me — that’s okay. I myself enjoy buying something beautiful from time to time and fulfilling my dreams, especially as I continuously work through a psychological construct called “I don’t deserve it.”
I’ve made undeniable progress in this area, but it was a process that took years, because I believed I didn’t deserve certain things. Now I think differently, because I know that life is meant to be enjoyed — and not to worry excessively about tomorrow, because tomorrow may not come (not literally, of course — stability is important).
We think of manifestation in terms of consumerism, without yet realizing how important the development of intuition and consciousness truly is — and what a great reward it is from the universe.
We live in a world of magic — we just don’t always allow ourselves to notice that this magic truly exists.
And now I will tell you what spiritual development really is — as a closing summary. It is the development of consciousness. Not “love and light,” although they are important and are a byproduct of the expansion of consciousness. A person who truly develops needs elevated emotions — without them, unfortunately, there is no growth. That is why people with harmful intentions are often deeply disappointed that they don’t receive what they want. So-called wanting, craving, is low energy — desire, lust. From that field, manifestation is not possible.
I also haven’t told you what astrology is. And here the answer is very simple — astrology is a tool that describes time.
That’s all for today.
Kisses,
Laura
P.S. On this beautiful, sunny day, I’ve been wandering around the house since morning in my bathrobe. I’ve had five coffees, eaten nothing, and suddenly felt inspired to talk to you ;) That’s why I chose this photo — it felt perfectly aligned with the post, so you know what my vibe is today. Creative laziness, which I’m turning into art today. And now it’s time for a shower. Ciao, amori.
