Notes on eternity
Note: Quiet People in a Loud World - Silence, Anxiety, and the War of Appearances
This essay approaches social anxiety as a relational and cultural phenomenon rather than an individual flaw. Through personal experience and psychological, sociological, and philosophical reflection, it explores how quiet, introverted, and sensitive people move through a world that rewards speed, visibility, and performance. Early experiences of projection, bullying, and structural violence shape later patterns of anxiety, while adult life is increasingly defined by ego conflicts, personal branding, and the pressure to continuously present oneself.
The text examines contemporary relationships and dating culture as spaces governed by first impressions and simulated intimacy, where authenticity often becomes a style rather than a lived experience. Drawing on the concept of simulacra, it reflects on artificial social worlds in which identity and values circulate independently of real emotional grounding. Within such conditions, silence and hesitation are frequently misinterpreted as absence or inadequacy.
Rather than framing sensitivity as weakness, the essay suggests it may be an intuitive response to environments that exceed human capacities for regulation and connection. It concludes with a humanist reflection on value, emphasizing that rejection is not always personal, and that human worth remains unconditional—rooted in being human, rather than in performance or approval.
Note: When Illusions Fall - On Consciousness and Spiritual Maturity
In a world saturated with spiritual trends, rituals, and carefully curated aesthetic practices, it has become increasingly difficult to distinguish genuine awakening from sophisticated forms of escapism. What is often presented as spiritual growth frequently serves as a temporary refuge from responsibility, pain, and inner work, rather than a path toward deeper awareness.
This text explores how spirituality can gradually transform into a marketplace of illusion, where fear, hope, and human vulnerability are monetized, and where promises of clarity and healing replace real transformation. It questions the systems that encourage dependency instead of autonomy, and examines why authentic inner development is rarely peaceful, comfortable, or glamorous.
At its core, this is an examination of consciousness, energy, karma, and intuition — and of the uncomfortable truths that accompany real spiritual maturity. Awakening, as explored here, is not an escape from reality, but a confrontation with it, demanding responsibility, awareness, and the courage to let illusions fall apart.
