Notes on eternity
Note: Birthday Beyond Time - A Tale of Endless Nights
This essay is a personal and philosophical reflection on birthdays, time, and the illusion of linear becoming. Drawing on spiritual intuition, psychological insight, quantum perspectives, and lived relational experience, it questions the cultural obsession with age, milestones, and celebration, proposing instead a model of life rooted in presence rather than chronology. Turning 33 becomes not a marker of time passed, but a symbolic gateway—an integration of awareness, embodiment, and responsibility without the loss of youth or openness.
Through reflections on relationships, manifestation, and emotional readiness, the text explores how desire, fear, and energetic incoherence shape what appears and disappears in our lives. It examines love not as fantasy or projection, but as something that demands presence, courage, and the capacity to stay—both with another person and with oneself. Moments of disappearance and silence are treated not only as relational failures, but also as mirrors revealing where coherence is still forming.
The essay concludes by moving beyond rational frameworks into a poetic, almost mythic register, asking whether life must be a story of compromise—or whether it can become a tale of endless nights. Rather than offering prescriptions, it affirms a conscious refusal to settle: for relationships that vanish, for identities defined by numbers, or for a life stripped of meaning. What remains is a quiet declaration of alignment—with truth, with depth, and with a way of living that does not outgrow wonder.
Note: When Illusions Fall - On Consciousness and Spiritual Maturity
In a world saturated with spiritual trends, rituals, and carefully curated aesthetic practices, it has become increasingly difficult to distinguish genuine awakening from sophisticated forms of escapism. What is often presented as spiritual growth frequently serves as a temporary refuge from responsibility, pain, and inner work, rather than a path toward deeper awareness.
This text explores how spirituality can gradually transform into a marketplace of illusion, where fear, hope, and human vulnerability are monetized, and where promises of clarity and healing replace real transformation. It questions the systems that encourage dependency instead of autonomy, and examines why authentic inner development is rarely peaceful, comfortable, or glamorous.
At its core, this is an examination of consciousness, energy, karma, and intuition — and of the uncomfortable truths that accompany real spiritual maturity. Awakening, as explored here, is not an escape from reality, but a confrontation with it, demanding responsibility, awareness, and the courage to let illusions fall apart.
